It is me

Did you ever thought about sence of your life? Why were you born on the Earth, why? Whtas your beleving?Why? What for you have lucky-face in the morning, when you looking at the mirror and see your face? Is it something special? Or just normal, daily things?
There is so many questions to ask, but what about answers?Why we did not get correct answers, from things we do every day?Mhm....Life...its very hard....yes....sometimes you hear voices from your brain...you dont know were they were from....What did they want from you? Did you do something wrong in your life?Do you have to change your thinking?Clean your mind...maybe...its possible...and clear...What do you want to get?Is someone need you to talk to you?To spend with you your free-time?Or maybe someone who hates you wants to speak to you soon?
What if you are foreign, like me, and you're try to speak English, as hard as breath when you are born, after 10 mins, and you wanna thinking in English, but another language is still taking your mind?
You dont wanna feel it...it kills yourself...cya

Haya!!!
My name is Joanna, I am 15 yare old. In fact I came from Poland (Europe-opposite Germany and Russia), and I live in Northern Ireland in Belfast about 7 months. And I very like live here. But, it is just one problem - I still learn English, because i do not speake very well. In school, I think I am good student, and I want to be architect in the future. My boyfriend live in London, because his family moved to England too, he is polish too. I love him so much, and I will move with all mmy family to London, and then we will forever together.
In Belfast I have many friends, my best friend is Jing, she is Chinese. She is very funny, and we use to learn english together. One thing wchich is not all right for me here, is too much polich peloples, when I go out with my friends, I always hear my first language....ugh...i really do not like it!!!
In my country, I usually wrote so many poems, and I try to do it in English.I wish, day from day my english gonna be well-I give 1 more year to myself, and I must speak like every Irish, British or English people!!!
Cya, bye